Scared of what?

I hate those moments when I'm scared. Because of what? It doesn't matter at all. What matters its the fact that you can't control it. When weird thoughts come through your mind. Shh. Cos nobody has to know about them.. so you keep them inside you, somewhere?? Why would you be scared because of happiness or I dunno, something that normally should bring a beautiful smile on your face?
Scared because I'm there, where I never thought I'll ever be.. and I'm still pulling through.. wow! So.. maybe I should just get use to this. Its quite cosy by the way. I mean.. even when something scares me.. there is something that says "Keep going Andra!" Isn't this weird and naughty?? Ahaha.. Indeed it is. The best thing to do is stop asking around and handle it. Because if its there you can't deny it, you could but than everything would be such a mess and hey, its your chance, take it and stop caring about how scary it might be or what's waiting for you after this door,

ENTER and enjoy Andra.